Friday, August 13, 2004,5:34 PM
ReAsOnS ArE JuZ ExCuSeS tO MaKe mE FeEl bEtTEr

Todae was rather boring for me..i nv go to sch becoz i gt a little nt feeling well but the main reason is..i wan to sleep longer..lol..lame rite..anyway..wake up in the morning den watch PNC..a nice HK drama..den i heard tis line..until now i still dunno wat i had done wrong..when i heard tis line..i remember the dae he send me the msg..he did nt tell me his reasons..i was veri sad..tat was the first time i cried for a guy..juz now i when to surf net and i found tis in the net..down in the rain..i could no longer differentiate..wad's tears..and wat's rain..maybe they had juz combined into one..he had left me with no reasons to hold on..reasons are juz excuses to make me feel better..but i could no longer believe dem..they seems to tell me..i can't cheat anybody..if i can't even cheat myself.. before i when out to meet xinyi..i go and see the movie preview he send me..i watch it over and over again..hopping he would send these kind of things to me again..but hopes are juz hopes..everytime i sae those pics..mtv..preview..songs..he sent me when we were chatting..i realli wan to go back to those times..i sent him this eng song by tata young-crush on you..he sae it was a nice song..he also tell me he seldom listen to eng song 1..actually i was also hoping he will knoe i also wan him to knoe tat i realli gt a crush on you..a big crush..why muz destiny play such a trink with me..sometimes i realli hate it..why muz we realli have to lost somethings to realise wat they realli mean?? dreams are dreams they nv come true...onli bad dreams come true...is tis realli how the world works??..do fairytale existed in tis world??..can someone teach him a lesson..or else he will never knoe wat is true love..he will carry on hurting other pp heart
sToP dOiNg aLL tHoSe ThInGs..i ReAlI wAn tO hAve a gOoD ImPrEsSiOn Of yOu..iN mY HeArT