Thursday, October 13, 2005,10:14 PM

okie..i did something cruel last nite..he wanted mi to be straight to him..so i'll be straight to him..i told him dat i dun think we can patch..coz the image of him...become a scary 1...i juz can't forget it.. and he did it again..by msging saying wat he is scary..watever...why can't he juz accept it..i dun understand..i knoe its hard..but everybody juz have to experience it..at least once...its life...he sae it in the tone tat i realli hate it...why muz u make me hate u..i dun understand..why muz u make things become like dat..my impression of urs...change...

last nite i was thinking why after ter..i have been doing cruel some stuffs..which i realli dun like to do it at all..i think i should stop having any relationship..until i realli realli forget ter...i dun understand myself too..i keep thinking abt the times when the both of us chat..since last year we always bicker the moment we see each other...whenever i buy any newspaper dat gt jay..he will always took it from mi..i keep it..dun wan to give mi back...

i'm still living in the past..i keep thinking if tat time i nv go to obs..will we be able to get back...i was so close to him..yet within a week..he was with her again..u knoe the feeling..its like u almost caught a balloon..here comes a wind and blew it away..and its gone forever...in the air..with the clouds....

The sweetness of the past is rewinding
the hopes that I have placed in you
Have been shattered by you time and again
It’s already broken into too many pieces